WEEKLY MEDITATION 6: 30 Days of Gratitude & Patience

M.06.23

Maybe it's just me, but this was the longest month of my life. I felt I had a couple mantras this week, to be the example that wasn't there and to meet myself where I was at. If I need coffee this month I'll have some. If I need to tone it down on my work out this month, I will. What impressed me last month was the ability to remind myself that I am capable of discipline. I was able to quickly identify things I can go without and also things I gravitate towards. I haven't done much writing but I have found time to stay motivated and stay inspired.

Before the new year I got heavy into Japanese jazz and a more modern alternative music scene overseas which has been like alternative music I listened to in college meets Nujabes, with women vocals at the forefront. I fell in love with several obi-strip vinyl covers I used as vision boards for Daydreams & Nightmares.

Sometimes I feel my algorithm is an anomaly that somehow gets uploaded in this Tron/Truman Show Universe and is exploited to the fullest. This year I have seen so many vinyl covers embody the Japanese cover obi-strip style I was diving into over the last year or so. I hate trying to bring something back but then it's global and I look like a poser. I'm trusting my instincts and my intentions to somehow tap into last years vision board and incorporate it into the world of Daydreams x Nightmares.

Anyways, last month I learned to give myself patience and gratitude, meaning if some of my day is geared towards family, or health, or artistry, I'll lean into my instincts and let it guide me in that direction a bit more than sticking to such a rigid schedule like I did in my twenties. I have also completed a mental reset by listening to a lot of genre-bending music that moves me either sonically or lyrically, without worrying if it sounds like a world that fits Daydreams x Nightmares. My main motivation this month is to not be so caught up on writing and be more caught up on being the best version of myself. I want to be in great mental, spiritual, and physical health on the back end of completing this project.

Even with all the high expectations I set for myself, and the failures I felt, I lost 6 pounds already this year. Nonetheless, I'm most proud about feeling as light mentally, as I do physically. The more I trust the journey I am on this year I am starting to embody the concept of everything I need is already in me.

02.12.23

- MCMXX

WEEKLY MEDITATION 5: A Meditation on Mental Fitness (S.C.A.T)

M.05.23

Evolution is a circle. I feel a lot of grace, being able to tap into things I did in my twenties and repurpose them when I need to. SCAT was never an issue for me in my twenties. I didn't start drinking coffee until I was 23/24 years of age. I barely drank in college. Born and raised in Miami, you've done it all by the time you've turned eighteen. Tobacco was a habit I picked up around COVID, sitting around with idle hands. Sugar, comes with the coffee most of the time.

I set out to go thirty days without SCAT and out of the thirty days, I probably had 20-22 days without sugar, coffee, alcohol, and tobacco. I'm at the point in my life where going out doesn't excite me. I like getting fresh air - going on hikes, going for a nature walk. When I'm bored though, and I don't want to move around I'll succumb to coffee, wine, or a cigar. What I noticed from this thirty day journey was a removal of a fuzzy or cloudy brain. Yes the days felt longer, but it was due to the fact my mind was sharp 24 hours in the day. It was easier to get up in the morning, it was easier to think. I could say something in my head with exactness.

Reverting back to this monk style of living didn't feel foreign. In my twenties I was very stiff when it came to my diet and workout routine. What was different this time was I didn't notice how long I hadn't gone without one of these things and once I removed all of them for at least three weeks, I could really see that the feeling of being "bloated" wasn't really a feeling I felt in my stomach or body but it was more so impacting my brain and thought process and my circadian rhythm in a sense.

Shay J and I have always talked about the concept of being high on life, and I really started to feel like Common did in that PETA commercial. Since I was so disciplined in most of my twenties this feeling was normal to me then, but coupled with how much wiser you are as you get older it's a powerful combination. As an older me, this power was kind of scary.... in a good way.

I'm hoping to go 60-66 days back to this mental exercise from April to Early June. I hope everyone out there is finding small improvements within themselves and sometimes you have to go back to what worked in the past.

2.05.23

- MCMXX

FLOOR SEAT FLOWS | SOUTH BEACH [2010]

11- Floor Seat Flows (Prod. by Boger) | South Beach [2010]

C02.2021 10 years off. Old flows. Back to the future.... CNCR SZN.

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[Intro]

Floor seat flows, you already know

far as material goals, my list is short Floor seat flows, you already know far as material goals...

Broke my heart when Drake didn't stay independent

Broke my heart when Mac signed I hope they get it

Everything they deserve watching Nipsey flip it

My mind is A$I until the last inning

[VERSE 1: RETRO1920]

10 years off but I could flow forever

Swear its something about being an artist of ya era Honda midnight pearl its wine colored, they falling off

my falls covered

Been on my Hendrix and on my Kravitz

Grey chelsea boots and trucker jackets

Ran this decade underground but kept it

so Casper

In CNCR SZN they own whips but can't own their masters? Swear it's sneak dissing but keep the family close

Long as my brothers' eating than I'm staying ghost

{Bridge]

Astrology, the code of ethics of a living legend Ahead of this generation, yet I'm here for the next one [Verse 2]

I touch souls, then change clothes, and cars we in Cigars rolled, the chains gold, and God chose us Not to boast, but this year I'm getting close To all them goats, I'm six years in at the most

Two book deal, I'm feeling amazing

Signed myself I learned it all through Nipsey's patience

Bon Voyage n Beck Mot in a different space Hoping to spill some Ace near Hov and all the greats

Wind blowing in my face, just hoping to make enough

to cop a bike, been in my own lane Industry want nostalgia so like that son? I'm whipping the civic like it's a Datsun

[Bridge]

Astrology, the code of ethics of a living legend Ahead of this generation, yet I'm here for the next one

{Verse 3} SKOB (Some Kind of Blue IV] number 4, but this one a classic Living five years ahead but dropping it backwards Far as creating in my city the number one subject If I can't break bread with my brothers let's end the discussion Survivor's guilt weigh a ton, and you PT to lose it Lost 42 grams, this here deeper than music, That’s two brothers on your shoulders the burden is human

I gotta live more of my life for those who couldn’t

Hoping the CB or Shadow stay in the budget

Can no longer run from fear, I’m running towards it

More exposure mean my goals are getting nearer,

mean I see myself in nature the vision is clearer

{Bridge] Astrology, the code of ethics of a living legend

Ahead of this generation, yet I'm here for the next one

{Verse 4]

Boost on feet whenever hit road

3 or 4.0’s already know

Painting Divine lines, shine in irrational efforts

But God’s golden ratio in all of ya subjects Debating equity, is the film game ready for me? Cloth I’m cut from, it’s not here no more

Budden, Milo, and Lupe I’m a mix of those

temporary goals, feel it in ya soul

My brother Holla we was born one day apart

It’s not a coincidence we share the biggest of hearts

Cancer season if you near us then you breathe it

God channeling protection and we can give it

[Bridge] Astrology, the code of ethics of a living legend Ahead of this generation, yet I'm here for the next one x2

Astrology, the code of ethics of a living legend

Ahead of this generation but yet here for the next one.

South Beach | 11 Floor Seat Flows (Prod. by Boger) RETRO1920

- MCMXX